Tuesday, February 28, 2012

i can see you!

today we finally got to see... something!  at the first doctor appointment (5 weeks) we couldn't see anything, but were encouraged that everything looked all set up for baby. this didn't help the fact that i really haven't been able to convince myself that this is real yet.  

now at 8.5 weeks, i was stoked for today. aaaaaand we saw little peanut! that's exactly what he or she looks like now and i really like that as a nickname for now instead of saying "it."  i was sad i couldn't see jay's face from where i was but when we both heard peanut's heartbeat i know we both freaked out.  now it's real.  the heart rate was at a crazy 171 bpm so i know it wasn't mine!  

here is peanut's first debut! (the head is on the bottom)

 wanted to leave with my favorite pregnancy clip from HIMYM this season :)
 HIMYM pregnancy clips

Thursday, February 23, 2012

let's get organized

okay these random perusings about the first few weeks of pregnancy may get out of control. i'm going to try to follow the format that my favorite preggo blogs, little baby garvin

How far along? 7 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: -4lbs thanks to a crazy sparse diet of 97% carbs

 Maternity clothes? nopers
Stretch marks? no
Sleep: waking up around 3am to pee desperately
Best moment this week: not having morning (in my case afternoon and evening) sickness 2 days in a row!

 Have you told family and friends: my mom and dad, and our close roswell friends because i could only avoid booze around them for so many weeks without an explanation!
Miss Anything? ALCOHOL! and having a normal appetite

 Movement: nope
 Food cravings: they come and go within minutes.  some include; an embarrassing amount of pistachios, sweet potato chips, chik-fil-a (A LOT!)   all of those i immediately regret afterwards and feel so sick.
 Anything making you queasy or sick: everything but carbs. right now things that disgust me include; avocado, chipotle,  roasted chicken, and anything with a very strong smell.
Have you started to show yet: no, but my usually pretty flat abs have a little pooch next to my belly button :( doesn't look so good in tight shirts and dresses already.
Gender prediction: don't have a hunch yet.  i teach little kids so i see the pros and cons to having both.  i think our baby girl name is perfect already and they are so fun to dress up.  however, little boys always wind up being my favorite students every year.  also, like a typical guy, jay really really really wants a boy.  he also wants a boy so he can have a "first" in his family (we were already 2nd to get married and 3rd to have a baby.) seeing his face light up talking about having a baby boy to play with is worth it having a boy.
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: moody.  sorry everyone, especially most of you who don't know yet! my moods are out of control right now.
Looking forward to:hearing the heartbeat in 5 days and actually seeing something in the ultrasound. i'm hoping it will make it feel more real to me.

Monday, February 20, 2012

in vegas... knocked up...and with my parents

pre-baby news, jay and i had booked a trip to las vegas for my birthday.  we were also going to meet my parents there since the men had a business trip there.  it was hard not getting scared to take my first trip since finding out i'm preggo.  i was so tired just after a day at work and being able to rest at home, i was worried about my energy, food restrictions, and aversions to many foods. 

the good news was that we finally got to tell some family about the baby!  since the ultrasound from week 5 didn't show much, we picked out a onesie that said "i'll be here soon with hugs and kisses" and put a paper over it so it said "i'll be here in october with hugs and kisses."  since the due date is october 7th and so close to my dad's birthday i also made a card that said "grandpa, can i share your birthday?"

we gave them the gift immediately upon meeting them in vegas,  we said we wanted to give them a thank you present for the trip.  eyes bugging out and mouth dropping seems to be the common reaction now for everyone so far!  although, my dad was sitting on the hotel bed and literally fell down.  my mom cried and there were hugs, but there was also just a lot of processes quiet time.  this happened when we told our closest atlanta friends too and it's freaking me out.  i get that it's shocking news, but we're 27 and married, so i have been expecting more... screeching and not so much silence?  it's making me feel very insecure with a situation we didn't even decide on ourselves!

i bet that my first time in vegas (while pregnant) is waaaaay different than if i was there with girl friends at a bachelorette party.  however, it was still really fun!   the food was fabulous, the shows were so great, and walking the hotels was so fun.  the difficult parts were walking all day and night with already low energy, watching all the people drinking when i couldn't, and my crazy mood swings!  i felt so bad for my parents and jay, my moods were out of control.  i felt very bratty and upset i couldn't control it, i bet i came off looking ungrateful for the trip and it makes me embarrassed i did that.

vegas, i liked you a lot.  let's hang out again when i can do it up right. 

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

a very different birthday

today i turned 27, did baby not know this?  luckily i was only a little nauseous all day but mostly i was unbelievably tired at the end of school.  i don't think baby could handle all the excitement of my birthday and a valentine's day party with kindergarteners and parents at school. i was on my feet way too long moving constantly and i'm paying for it now, dearly.  it is getting so hard at school to hide my waves of nausea and tiredness!

 i've spent my last few birthdays out to dinner, drunkenly pretending to swim on the floor, visiting world of coca cola, eating all the soft cheeses i want, taking lots of birthday cake shots, etc.  today i had very little bland food and i'm curled up in bed with a heat pack for my back and in my pajamas... at 5:45pm.  thank goodness i have an incredibly understanding husband who is compromising his valentine's day as well to let me rest as long as i need.  

i had a great birthday conversation with my mom, she said my 27th birthday is hitting her a lot harder than previous years.  she said mostly because she was 27 when she had me and it's hard to think of her baby at the same age she had me!  i cannot wait to share the news with her and my dad this weekend.  jay and i are going to vegas this weekend for my birthday with my parents (the men had business there.)  las vegas for the first time, with my parents, and knocked up ;)  not how i pictured my first time there, but i hope to make up for it in a few more years. 

 i think this birthday put things in a good perspective for me, it isn't about me anymore! :)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

on a whim

all i kept thinking last sunday was "why am i suddenly craving a burger and cheese fries like my life depends on it" and "how come i can smell like a blood hound?"  these few odd circumstances led me take the infamous test on a whim.  no way it could be positive, right?  might as well calm my nerves so i could stop doing the thing every girl does every month, freaking out that they are preggo.  

you don't want to mess around with the + and - test.  once some lines show up you freak out "omg what does 2 lines and a vertical pink line mean?!"  i got the clear, no BS ones.  so when it flashed back at me and said "pregnant," it was a crystal clear realization.  my face got hot, i was shaking and sweating, and literally said "oh.my.god" to my collection of necklaces in the bathroom.

i knew this wasn't something i could hold from jay and think of a creative way to tell him in a few days.  i tell him everything, and i wanted him in on the news asap.  jay was "sharking" our floors downstairs, i sneakily wrapped the tests and approached him downstairs.  he was mad i was all over the wet floors but i unplugged the shark after some protesting and forced him to sit down.  he said "i'm sharking the floors, what could possibly be more important than finishing that right now?"  i tried not to burst out laughing and just said calmly said "i guarantee this is more important."  as he opened it, i have never seen a human being's eyes bug out more in my life.  it was just about the goofiest expression i've seen on his face, bugged out eyes and a smile that could have wrapped around his head.  a lot of hugging and "oh my gods" happened in the few minutes after.

i hope this blog of our experience helps me to capture moments like these, in such detail so that i won't let this amazing journey pass without documenting it.  there have already been so many thoughts racing through my brain and researching done this week that i need to post one at a time!